又要离开这个地方。

真的很爱这里又如何，没有人愿意把我留下。

临走前一晚，什么人都不在身边，只有我一个。

我爱他吗？还是爱他？

连我自己都搞不清楚了。

既然自己都混乱成这样，还不如谁都不要爱。

也许注定的归宿就是跟一个不爱的人，一起变老，如此而已。因为现实说，只有爱情是远远不够的。

我想要流泪，但是记得谁曾经告诉过我，再难过，也要SUCK IT UP. 于是我这么做了，然后发现再也没有办法流泪了。

时间过的好快好快，但是我的回忆是一片空白。想不起爱过谁，想不起还爱谁，想不起还能爱么。我想要重来，却没人答应。我想要走开，也没有力气。我想要睡过去，永远不醒来。我一直重复幻想，在我的葬礼，有多少人会为我流泪，有多少人会后悔没有好好爱我。可是离去，也是需要勇气，而我却远没有那么勇敢。我选择生存，活着这我痛恨的生命，走着一条我看不见未来的路，边走边哭，却还一直回头，明知没有机会选择，却还幻想有那高大的王子来带我走。

我累了，要睡了。

明天，谁知道呢。

There is a brand new opportunity right in front of me.
Should I go grab it hard and take the risk,
Or do I just let it slip away?

Very JIU JIE decision...

I still haven't fully waken up from childhood,
when I had so much time to waste around,
when I had thousands of friends to sit down,
when I thought love was eternal,
when I believed reality was never true.

When reality hits, it does not directly stab you in the heart,
and when you realize your blood and time is draining away,
it's usually too late.

I am already 24.
Still too young to take the world,
yet a bit too old to live in a colorful bubble dream.
I am still being protected by the shell that I was born with,
yet I can feel the threaten from the outside world.
I have seen what I cannot bear,
I have done what I cannot afford to conclude,
Thank God I haven't lost my faith and strength,
the courage to carry on this voyage,
and the love that could last me to the end.

Life is all about adventures.
And adventures can start ANYWHERE, ANYTIME.

WISH EVERYONE LUCK WITH THEIR OWN ADVENTURES!